Thank you to those who left messages here and emailed.
I definitely slid into a funk and went awol from all parts of my life.
Part of it was medical. The colitis. An injury to my shoulder that kept me off work.
Part of it was mental. Just sad to my core. Hopeless. trapped. nothing to look forward to . Ever.
Part of it was work: So helpless when I have kids in trouble at school with parents who are not supportive, or who make the situation worse...kids with mental illnesses and no help. Kids in abusive dynamics and even social services can't get in to help.
Part of it was monetary. DS's (my) vehicle's tires were about to split. $1000. Package policy for (insurance) for 3 vehicles - $980. DS1 needed his next round of rent and living money. It just kept flooding in. Even though I known DS2 is close to finishing and will hopefully be finding a job in his field...even though I know DS1 has only 1 year left...it was just burnout.
So I did what any logical person would do (note the sarcasm).... I went a bit deeper in debt. DS1's team made it to college version of the Stanley Cup. and so I went. I got to see a major US city. new landmarks. New restaurants. I got to be like all the other moms on the team and follow their kid to an event. I got to watch my son play in front of 20,000 ppl... a half million on TV. It was amazing.
and rejuvenating.
So now, with Easter break upon us, I feel a bit rejuvenated, a bit more hopeful. The debt damage I did wasn't insurmountable. time to sip some coffee, and come up with a slow but steady process to keep making progress, but not get back in that trapped, no life, no fun vortex.
Thank you again all.
Not Much Working Out Monday
3 hours ago
5 comments:
Have thought of you. Congrats to yourcsom. Sometimes, funks just need to be dealt with and your trip sounds needed, not just a wanted.
So glad to know you're okay, and feeling better.
The trip to see your son play sounds like a once-in-a-lifetime chance. I think splurging was the *right* move, especially when you've been so committed and done so well for so long - even if it added a little debt.
Hugs, Jolie. I hope you are able to get back to a good mental place most of all. The rest will fall into place.
New follower. Wow, do I ever get where you are coming from. April has definitely been one of those months for us. One step forward, three steps back. May can't get here soon enough!
Welcome back Jolie. I've been out of circulation as well and trying to get back to posting regularly. Life is to be enjoyed though some parts are harder than others. I hope you can kick this funk to the curb and get back into a routine. Watching your son play such a high level of hockey must have been thrilling! Just what you needed :) Your mortgage continues to go down down down and the time will come when that money can be directed to your line of credit. You'll get there.
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